Well Its A Little Update...

well hopefully this little blog will come out just fine... Cisco gave me a real cell phone for Christmas, yay no more go phone for me! Im so excited. I am sending this blog from the phone right now trying to get the hang of the keyboard, I guess the good thing about it is that it is set up just like a computer keyboard so I am flying across this thing like a champ. There wasnt too much that was different about this christmas from others...the kids got more presents than they should have and still felt the need to complain about it... which really bothers me. So I have been warming up to the idea of Ciscos to spend next christmas in Mexico. I think that it would be good to have the kids spend it somewhere where the kids dont get as much and they are genuinely thankful for what they do get. I have the thought right now that due to the spoilings of aunts, uncles and grandparents they have in the back of their head "i wish i got more" or "what else did i get?" so we will see how the fates play out for us. I hope that we are able to do it. I hope that all of you had a great holiday with your family and friends. Happy New year to you all...make it a safe one. :)
-M

Tonight Is The Night...

it's Christmas Eve and the kids are all kinds of excited. They can't help from jumping up and down in complete excitement. For me, I'm excited also, I just am a little happy that it's all over. It just gets to the point where it's a little too hectic for me. It's the jumping around and visiting everyone in the next two nights that drives me nuts, I swear we will be living in the car tonight and tomorrow, or atleast that is what it feels like. I think that I just might not come into work on Wednesday, well yeah right who am I kidding, I'm here right now. Atleast today is only a half day. But it was so hard to come into work when the house was nice and warm, the kids and Cisco were in their PJ's watching cartoons and here I am coming down the stairs going to work. That just really sucked. I'm sure I will be feeling the same way on Wednesday also. That is how it always is. No one wants to come into work on Christmas Eve as well as the day after Christmas. I think that this is a lot better though, job wise, because I remember when I worked at Mandalay how much it sucked to go to work. And at those places you don't get the holiday's off. You're actually very lucky if you do get the holiday off.

Well here is to tonight and Olivia's performance. As well as Christmas in general.

Till I see you all again...

~M

Just My Luck...

Well...no luck at all. I wasn't able to get the tickets and I am quite upset by it. I thought I had a pretty good plan going for a while, but aparently not. Nice goin'...I guess I should have camped out at MGM after all. Oh well, life will go on.

On a lighter note, it's almost Christmas and the phase of people being rude, pushing into one another and cutting eachother off on the streets is nearly over. I tend to hate people in general around this time of year. It's been all blown into something that it never should have become...all about the presents. That is a shame. I mean I buy gifts for everyone too, but I can also appreciate the time of year that it is and what it means, atleast in my heart. And presents are not at the core of it. I think this year instead of letting the kids just tear into things the minute that we get downstairs, I think that we will have a prayer and give thanks for the true meaning of the day itself, and then let the shredding begin. I was thinking about that today while driving home from work and I think that would be a beautiful start to the day.

Well, I'm sure that I won't write until after this holiday so Merry CHRISTMAS...not Happy Holiday's (screw that crap), and I hope everyone is healthy and happy.

Much Love...

~M

On The Search For...

Hannah Montana. I thought that it would be an awesome Christmas present for Olivia if I were to score some Hannah Montana concert tickets. Cisco just left to go to the Ticketmaster located in one of the local grocery stores and I am camped out on the computer. The tickets go on sale at noon, so I have about 20 or so minutes until I have to type faster than ever before. We said whoever got the tickets first would call the other, so that we don't buy two sets. I guess I could always sell them to one of Olivia's little friends for the price that we bought them for if that did happen. But, I don't want to go through the hassle of doing all that. I really hope that we get them, but if we don't the one good thing is that, 1. Olivia doesn't know she is coming to do a concert here and 2. She doesn't know that I'm trying to get the tickets.

It's funny because I thought this was a project that I was going to do on my own, since I came up with it and all. But at about 5:30 or 6:00 this morning Cisco was getting dressed. I couldn't figure out what the hell he was doing. I asked him and he said that he was going to the MGM to see if he could get the tickets. So believe me it's nice to have a partner in crime now with this stuff.

I hope we get them, but if not atleast I tried extremely hard. I even tried to join the fan club at $30 a year, just to get the presale code to get the tickets yesterday.

Well wish me luck and I'll eventually blog to say how it all went down.

~M

A Man Cold...

Oh the truth of it all...thanks Summer!



~M

It's my birthday...(part 1)

And I'll cry if I want to...well atleast I think I will if Cisco comes home tonight to tell me that he doesn't have tomorrow off. Which I would think he would since I'm pretty sure that he has known my little birthday would be on a Friday for a while. I am not officially 28 for a couple of more hours, so I have to enjoy being 27 for right now. Cause "at the stroke of 12 the spell will be broken" just as Cinderella's fairy Godmother would say.

Unfortunatly for me I have to spend my birthday trying to get the issues that I am having with my Drivers License resolved. So it's off to the Courthouse at 7:30 in the morning to see if I can work my charms. Even the lady at the DMV this evening felt bad for me. So...maybe I can make this work. Gotta go looking cute tomorrow.:)

I don't really have any plans, Olivia said that I was invited to dinner with her Grandmother and Godmother, but that all depends on if Mr. C can get the day off, if he doesn't then I will take them up on their offer. If he does then I hope that he has actually planned out the evening, I like spontinaety, but there has to be suprise on my end not on his too, he's supposed to know what we are doing. Not get in the car and then say, "So what do you wanna do?" I HATE that. I don't like that on special occasions when I'm not supposed to do the thinking and when I have told him many examples of what I would like to do for my birthday. I think that I have even given some very good examples on this blog before. Yeah, I wish I knew how to do the thing with the link so that he could click on it and see the evidence. But if you look at last November I think I did make a list.

Well when things have settled from this weekend I will write again. Saturday Cisco has the Santa Run, and I'm sure he'll post pictures for that, and I signed up to do the Walk for Autism. I think that December 1st is the day of the walks or something, because there is the Las Vegas Marathon too. But then on Sunday is Cisco's Christmas dinner for MGM Food and Beverage so it will be a busy weekend.

Adeu till then

~M

My Best Friend's Wedding...

So it's has happened...my best friend Steve "Stecktacular" got married. I just never thought that it would happen, atleast not before me. But he looks happy and that makes me happy. I thought I would post some pictures. It was really fun and maybe the next wedding I see him at will be mine...cause you'll never guess who caught the bouquet...

~M

It Took Long Enough...

Well I finally got around to downloading my pictures so a little history for some of them...Halloween Party, need I say more? It was a lot of fun, Anthony was Indiana Jones and Olivia was Hermione. I wonder if you can guess who I was...Alice In Wonderland, just in case :)I think this party went better than last year. I even put up a little Haunted House in the garage I was thinking for a little bit that none of the kids would go into it, but low and behold that is where they spent most of the day in there. This party was not as stressful as last year and I think that was because I pretty much knew what I was going to do. I'm sure that getting started a month early with the planning and shopping probably helped. I do always forget how much money it always costs and all the time it takes to make the food and set everything up, but it's all worth it because I know all the kids have fun.
I always give out the best prizes, so it's definitely worth coming to my parties...you know Halloween T-Shirts and other things that you normally don't get at parties, at least not any parties that I have been to. I swore that I wouldn't have a party next year, but that is what I said last year also. It's hard not to because it really is a good time.

So now that is over with and it's November already! Can you believe it? I know that I can't, and if you live in Las Vegas it doesn't feel like November at all. It is driving me crazy! It is a known fact that I hate the heat as it is and now that it's not getting cold is not a good thing for me. It's going to be a busy week, but it should all be fun. Tomorrow we leave for California to go to a party, I'm going to try and spell this correctly, a Quincenerra. Now if I didn't please don't hate me too badly and feel free to correct me (I know that Cisco will). Let's see what else...oh yeah, my best friend Steve is getting married on Wednesday, yeah the day before Thanksgiving and what was even better than this was that he called me yesterday and told me. There is a 50th Anniversary party to go to and last but not least my birthday. Oh, isn't that going to be exciting. Another year and yet no drama. How nice...:)

Well I think that it is time to go, but when all the festivities are over I will be sure to post, maybe I'll even get a chance in between things.

~M

Updates...

So it's been a crazy last couple of weeks, but I have finally found my way back to the computer. (In the darkness of my office when I'm not working, but atleast I'm writing) So I'm at my mom's house right now having dinner and now that it is over I would like to go home, but I am being held prisioner until dessert is served, which should be in about 15 minutes. Yuck...I don't even feel like having any right now, I just want to go home, but oh well, just 15 minutes more to go then I shall be released.

So the Halloween party is over and November is in full swing and with it, work, a couple of birthday's to celebrate as well as my own and the holiday shopping season. I think that things are going to be pretty dry this year. I just don't have the funds to do much. I either pay bills or buy presents, let me think...uh, I guess I pick electricity and water. Silly me! It's ok though the only thing that I know Cisco and I really do want to get the kids is a Wii, but if I can't find one I'm not going to stress out and kill myself over one. I will cut one out of a magazine, put it in a box, wrap it up and then when Christmas is over the kids can come with us to pick one up. I think that would be ok also. Everything always works out, even if it's not how you planned it.

Well whenever I get around to plugging in my camera at home I will and post some pictures from the Halloween party and also talk about it a little bit.

Until we meet again...

~M

My Mommy's Birthday...

Well there isn't much to tell except that it was my mommy's birthday and we went to Disneyland so here are some pictures of the trip! Enjoy.

~M

He's Home...

Yay! My hunny is home. He's actually sleeping right now, and I should too since my mom is going to call me at 5am to wake me up so that she can pick us up to go to Disneyland in the morning. I swear sometimes I think she has hit the crack pipe...but I love her. It's her birthday on Saturday so it should be fun for her to spend it at Disneyland. I am going to miss my hunny since he just got back home today and now I'm leaving for 4 1/2 days. That sucks...oh well atleast I'm not flying 4 hours away! Well I will post again when I return with pictures!

~M

A Little Porn Anyone...

Food Porn that is...I thought I would post the picture of the Black Forest Cake that I made for our neighbor tonight. On an even more positive note...MY HUNNY COMES HOME IN THE MORNING! Yay! I'm so excited. I'm in trouble though...I don't think I will be able to sleep tonight. I pretended to sleep when I was playing with Anthony and then actually fell asleep. Being really tired when I came home from work was the one thing that I had going for me. I mean I hope I do get to sleep. I need to look my best for him in the morning...:)

~M

So I Thought That It Was Over...Guess I Was Wrong...

So I have gotten over my rage from the other day...the moment has passed and after confronting R on his lack of billing skills the issues were resolved and now I am experiencing a very relaxing not busy at all kind of day...yay.

My mother decided to leak that bonuses are coming up and from the sounds of it all of the hard work and extreme irritation will be well worth it. I certainly hope that she is right and didn't quote the opposite amount of what will actually be given. The number that she gave sounds like it would be right consitering all the hard work we have all been doing. But we will see. I almost wish I didn't drag the number out of her, just in case.

Well on the fronts of my hunny in Detroit, he has opened the new place and I only have to wait 6 more days until he returns. I think that this week is going by so slow, and I know it is because I am just awaiting his return. But soon enough I will have him in my little arms.

~M

It's Just About O~V~E~R...

I have just so had my fill of Bull S@*# for today! I am so sick and tired of this stupid ass job that I have, and what is worse I am so sick and tired of R thinking that I am a complete idiot. He feels the need to talk down to me all of the time and make me feel like I am the idiot! Well guess, what! He's the moron. Good luck telling him he's wrong with something or that he has done something wrong. He turns it around and makes it someone else's fault. I think I'm about done, so if anyone is looking to hire a smart and intelligent person, please do contact me.

~M

Another Morning...Another Day...

Oh bother...another morning waking up alone in a cold room. No one to keep my little feet warm, or cover me with the blankets because I have kicked them all off once again. So since there is no one to do that I wake up every few hours because I'm cold and have to fight with the dog to get off the blankets that I'm trying to pull up to my chinny chin chin to stay warm.

Feeling that I have abandoned some of my very good friends on My Space I've written a couple of them, it's just hard to try and write and say hi to everyone...maybe I'll just post a bulletin and that will take care of it, then people can read it as they wish.

Let's see what do I have to do today...um, go to JoAnne's and return some stuff. Go to Target and do the same thing. Rick is going to come over and bring the kids bikes home, so that is a good thing, they have been asking me for their bikes, but there is no way in hell I am able to bring them home in my car. He is also going to be picking up the tile cutter and I have some stuff in the car from the garage that I am taking to Goodwill because I am tired of looking at it, however, I am not telling you what it is, because I know you will tell me not to do it and that you will take care of it...and after a year and a half of hearing that about this stuff...I know it's not going to happen any time soon. I have figured out a way to place the bins in the garage so that everything is nice and happy...yay. I have to remember to keep the garage closed though so that scary guy doesn't come over and think that we're the best of friends. Maybe when I am at JoAnne's I will go and eat at Sweet Tomatoes. Dad is coming over and he's going to help me do the lawn, so I have a busy day ahead of me I guess. Time to get started...

So the house is all dressed up. I have to take some pictures and then I will post them later.

~M

It's Nearly Unbearable...

I miss you...it's nearly unbearable. I nearly started to cry last night due to the overwhelming feeling of you not being near, and sometimes talking to you on the phone makes that worse. Sometimes it feels worse when I'm stressed out or tired, but when that all passes missing you is still there. I love you so much, and last night I started to think if this is what it would be like if you were not in my life. Would one passing moment of anticipating your return just move on to another and another, until I couldn't count anymore? I am so happy that I can talk to you, but then I prayed that God returned you safe to me so that I can have you in my arms and not just in my thoughts. Have I told you that I love you? Well I do, I know that you are doing this trip for the four of us, and that is good, however, I don't know how many more of these trips I can bear. When you start getting used to these trips do you lose love in a little way, to where you don't miss that person as much anymore and just think of it as a matter of duty to the family? I hope that isn't the case, but I guess you just hear of these couples where the other one is gone all of the time for work. Yeah, they have a nice and stable career, a nice home, fancy clothes, but is the same love still there from the stay at home mom taking the kids to their 38 weekly activities to keep the real lonliness away? I know that won't become us, but it was just a thought I had last night while laying in bed alone. I miss you and I love you and I can't wait for you to come home...

and yes...

14 more days.

~M

On This Fine Day...

Well this is just as fine a day as any. It's sunny, breezy, and cool. I would have to check, but it has to be in the mid 80's or something. It's really nice, no kids, but there is a dog with an attitude problem as well as some lizards. But I thought I would put up the picture of Lulu sticking her tounge out for the world to see.

There really hasn't been much going around here. I am still deciding if I am going to go to a dinner at the Stirling Club tonight with the Company. I guess I could hang out with my mom since she is going. I know what I am going to wear if I do go so atleast that isn't a problem. I think I might take a nap in a minute though, just because I can, and that is if the dog will let me. I swear it's like having a 2 year old all over again. Whatever she can fit into her mouth she will and try to eat it. She has tried to eat the lizards but was not successful.

Well if I do go tonight I will post some pictures for all to see. Which reminds me I have to go and get some more face powder, I'm all out.

Well my love, I am sure that I will talk to you later and since you are in a room that has all of the pleasures of home now (minus me and the kids) I'm sure you will be reading this later today. But, I thought I would throw in a picture of me and Lulu in bed...I'm sure that you are highly jealous of this, but just remember she can't take your place...she's too furry...lol. Also, remember how I told you that she went and had her very first beauty salon experience? Well, doesn't she look so cute? I thought that she did anyway, my mom had to brush out the top of her head, I guess I should have take the picture with the bow in her head for you to see. It was really cute, it was orange and yellow and had two little pearls in it, it was a Halloween bow. I think next time I will only have them put on the pink bandana, since the rubberbands got caught in her hair. I love you and misses your kisses...

~M

Empty Spots...

Oh, my...how I wish I was in bed right now with someone other than a pillow laying next to me. I do have to admit that it is nice to spread out across the whole bed when I get into it, but when I wake up in the morning I am in my usual "spot". It's funny how that gets pounded into your head and even when the other person isn't there you still have a way of shifting into what you're used to. The same goes with the kitchen table. C has the best spot if we want to watch something while we are eating and the kids know it too, so every once and a while they will fight over his spot so that they can see the cartoons in the morning. However, at night when it is time for us to sit down, I sit in my usual spot staring at Anthony and Olivia. It feels so empty with no one next to me, but whats funny is that C only eats dinner with us maybe 2 times a week as it is, maybe I'm just missing those 2 nights a week.

Regardless my brain is not used to all the extra space that usually gets filled up around 1 in the morning Sunday thru Thursday and 6am Friday and Saturday. Instead it stays empty with the exception of a little pupper that has grown accustomed to his "spot" she's not the same (a little hairy and has a wet nose a lot of the time) but the warmth and excitement to see me awake in the mornings is nice.

~M

Here I Go Again...

So I will begin this post as I usually do for right now...I misses my hunny...:( Well I wrote down on my desk calendar how many more days till he comes home and the count is at 23 more days...Bucky Katt doesn't like that one bit, but I'm sure it will be nice when he comes home...oh the appreciation that we will have for eachother...I think it might be more now than ever, not that it wasn't pretty high up there when we are together, but I think things are put into perspective when you are away from the one that you love. So there, now you know...I told ya I loved ya! :) lol

Well just in case there isn't anyone out there that doesn't know about the fires in San Bernadino (I think I spelled that right) I thought I would let you in on a little bit of what the Summerlin side of Las Vegas looked like Saturday morning when we all woke from our slumber...
I thought that was bad, but it looked really strange when you would see all the black smoke and then see the beautiful blue sky. What was a real shame is that other than the smoke it was a beautiful day.It has certainly cooled down here at night. I have opened up all of the windows upstairs and it's not hot at all in here. I do have to remember to turn the air up, but I don't think it will make a difference if I don't, it's so cold downstairs it registered at about 73 degrees when I looked last. Olivia swore that she didn't need her window open, but I told her that if she didn't want to be like a Thanksgiving Day turkey right of the oven in the middle of the night that she should.

Well quite personally I can't think of anything more to talk about so I think I will call it a night...I will leave you with this little love token that the kids and I threw together...

~M

The Things We Said Today...

So I was hoping that this day wouldn't be or atleast "feel" like it has been taking forever...but it has, begining with the dog waking me up at 7am. Atleast I called you though to wake you up and let you sit there wondering why you were awake at that ungodly hour.

Like I said this morning it was pretty cold outside...I was ready to go back in by the time I had just set foot outside the door. The kids are going to have to wear small sweaters on their way to school this coming week I think. Instead of going to Winchells for breakfast this morning Anthony and I went out to Einsteins Bagels and ate out on the patio, we both looked at the newspaper, me at the coupons and sales and Anthony at the Comics. We went to go and feed BJ's dogs and then went to Target to stock up on some more Halloween stuff for the party...speaking of which, I am officially done with the invitations and I put together the bags for the Auction. I think that the first Friday in October is when I will send the kids to school with their invitations. Remember how I was thinking about mailing them so that no one's feelings got hurt or anything, well I decided against that. I'm sure there are plenty of kids that have parties and hand out invitations and Anthony and Olivia aren't invited and they don't come home crying about it. And if they do get upset I guess this is a good time to learn about disappointment and how life isn't fair...I suppose anyway. I just don't want to spend all that money on stamps, I've spent enough as it is to make this a killer party. We will have to go to Smart and Final, Rick told me that they have the black tarp stuff to put up for the haunted house. I also need to go and buy a couple of black lights.

So anyways, the lizards are outside still and I think that they will stay out there for a while...when I felt how cold it was this morning I was thinking about bringing them back inside, but then I decided against it. The little bastards can stay out there a little bit longer, it's nice outside. I have to type some stuff up for work tonight, but I am wondering if I should do it now, since there is light up here and all. I need to buy a light for this corner, because when I work at night I can't see a damn thing.

I hope that you are having fun at the Football game and not drinking too much like you did lastnight. I hate when you drink too much, because I don't like talking to you on the phone then, I know that you won't remember anything that I say or we say and I can't tell if whatever does come out of your mouth is sincere or not....this doesn't only apply to when you are out of town, this counts for when you are here also.

It's back to the grind again tomorrow, work, school and way too many activities to try and keep up with. I am about at my wits end with it all. Here is the schedule this week and every week there after...

Monday ~ 5:00 - 6:00 ~ Oliva's Church Choir
Tuesday ~ 5:00 - 6:30 ~ Oliva's Ballet (the one good thing about this is that Sandy takes her.
Wednesday ~ 6:30 - 7:30 ~ Anthony's Cub Scouts
Thursday ~ 5:00 - 6:30 ~ Olivia's Ballet (Sandy again)
Friday ~ ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!! I swear, eventhough I don't have to take Olivia it's still draining, probably because it's still such a full schedule for everyone...and don't forget that on Tuesday and Thursday mornings I have to drop Olivia off at school for Choir at 8:00am. I can't wait till you get back so you can do that one. I do everything else already with them. I always thought that when I had kids homework and cooking dinner was going to be the hard part of everything, I didn't even think about the whole extracurricular activities thing. I am so ready for them to drive now, so they can take themselves to all this stuff. There is my complaining about stuff for the week while you aren't here. I'm sure that there will be something else next week.

You don't know how happy I am that you are coming back on the 10th though. I hope that you were telling the truth with that one. I know that I am leaving at 6am the next morning for 4 days but atleast I can see you for one night. Now that I think about it...I don't know if it is a good idea that you are coming back a day before I leave...I don't know if I will want to go. I bet that you are going to tell me something like, "Well I have to work on the 11th anyways, so you wouldn't see me anyways...you know how I live, eat and breathe my job..huh huh huh" So I guess it doesn't make much of a difference. Atleast you will be able to take Anthony and Olivia to school the next morning.

Well I guess I will write more to you later so that I don't run out of things for you.

Love you hunny bunch...

~M

Just Like Starting Over...

Our life together is so precious together
We have grown, we have grown
Although our love is still special
Let's take a chance and fly away somewhere alone

It's been too long since we took the time
No-one's to blame, I know time flies so quickly
But when I see you darling
It's like we both are falling in love again
It'll be just like starting over, starting over

Everyday we used to make it love
Why can't we be making love nice and easy
It's time to spread our wings and fly
Don't let another day go by my love
It'll be just like starting over, starting over

Why don't we take off alone
Take a trip somewhere far, far away
We'll be together all alone again
Like we used to in the early days
Well, well, well darling

It's been too long since we took the time
No-one's to blame, I know time flies so quickly
But when I see you darling
It's like we both are falling in love again
It'll be just like starting over, starting over

Our life together is so precious together
We have grown, we have grown
Although our love is still special
Let's take a chance and fly away somewhere

Starting over

(Just Like) Starting Over ~ John Lennon

I was listening to this in the car today and was thinking how true it is...
I miss you terribly and love you completely...forever.

~M

Calling You...

There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away

And if I said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away

Well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when I'm not around
asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do I try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

Well I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleepin' are you dreamin' and
if you're dreamin' are you dreamin' of me
I can't believe
you actually picked...me

I thought that the world had lost its sway
(it's so hard sometimes)
then I fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that away
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and I feel like I can fly
when I stand next to you
so what if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
I take the words you gave
and send them back to you

I only want to see
if you're ok when I'm not around
asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do I try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile

I will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin' are you dreamin' and
if you're dreamin' are you dreamin' of me
I can't believe
you actually picked...me

Calling You ~ Blue October
~M

Our Conclusion of Day 3...

So I tried to upload a picture of me and Lulu that Olivia took a minute ago and I couldn't do it on my laptop...for some reason the PC is saying that I am not connected to the Internet and I don't feel like messing with it, I can't see well enough with the light that I don't have over the computer anyway, so it will have to wait till tomorrow. Lu is going through her night crazies and messing with the couch, trying to bite it and then running away. Anthony is folding his clothes and they are both watching the "Tarzan" movie.

We walked over to the school to sign Anthony up for the Boy Scouts thing, but I read the paper wrong, I thought it was tonight at 6:30, but it's not till tomorrow night. That means we can't go, so Anthony will have to ask Nora for the paperwork since we will not be able to go. I have to pick up Olivia from Ballet so it's out of the question. We walked to the park and decided that we would go and see Sandy, and then on the way there we remembered that she had gone out of town, so then we just went to the park and played for a little bit...I tried calling you earlier because I couldn't remember if tomorrow was recycling day or not, I don't see any other bins out, but I thought that since it wasn't last week that it would be this one...I don't know about the trash days, this part is all new to me...ya know that's your job :) I hope that recycling is soon though, you would think that our garage is a personal cardboard and paper factory.

So I hope that you have had a productive day...less the going out and partying tonight, that's probably why you won't answer your phone...:)

I finally cleaned up the mess on the desk and all of your mail is sitting in a Valentines Day bag...that way it looks fun and festive for you when you open it. I can't believe that the end of the week is already here. It seemed to go by very fast...I think you should go out of town more often, my mom offered to come over to the house and help me pick up this weekend, she must feel sorry for me. I should go into work looking all dirty and scruffy, you know since you are the one that bathes me and brushes my hair everyday...since the general consensus is that I am not able to brush my teeth without you being in the house and god forbid pick up and clean it. Lol.

Well hopefully you will call in a little while and say good night to us like you promised...

~M

P.S. Of course I grabbed the mouse for the PC and got mad at the computer because it wouldn't move on the laptop screen...what a dork. Atleast I didn't walk into the wrong bathroom :)

Closure of day 2...

Well with the kids tucked tightly into bed, Jenny gone and trying to figure out what the dog did in another room when I wasn't in there it is pretty quiet around here. I can feel a small bit of depression setting in from missing you. I want to call you to hear your voice, and I know I will tomorrow, but I am so used to talking to you before I go to bed at night that the thought of not doing so this night makes me want to stay up until about 4 in the morning so that I can talk to you then. But, enough with me day dreaming...

It's been a good day all around and the fact that I didn't have to pick up Anthony from school made it better. I was able to get 7 hours in as opposed to the 6 I would have if I left. I probably would have been able to work longer if Anthony didn't need my help with home work. When he was about done my mom and I went to the fabric store and got the stuff for my costume...I hope it turns out the way I think it will. I would hate to be the slutty Alice if it doesn't fit proper...I know you wouldn't mind, but I'm sure that parents would. :)

Nothing overly exciting happened today...pretty boring, after picking Olivia up I found out from her teacher that her character shoes don't fit, so I will either go with her to Capezio this weekend or tell Sandy and she can do it. Sandy invited me to the Ballet Under The Stars and I said ok, until I remembered I promised my dad I would make him a birthday dinner at the house. I figured that it's the least that I could do since he is going to help me with the lawn so I don't have to chop my hand off trying to start the lawn mower. I think he is looking forward to it. There won't be any kids, which sucks because it would be nice for them to see him on his birthday, but we can talk and do things in the yard, have a beer, ya know...Saturday stuff.

I think I will be going out on Friday...I don't know what in the hell I'm going to do, but the thought of coming home to this house is not appealing...but then I have the dog don't I?

As before missing you bunches doesn't really hit until bed time because then I have run out of things to do...I mean last night, I washed every last dish, washed clothes and even filled up the kids water bottle things the night before and put them in the fridge so that they would be extra cool even with the frozen ice thing in there. I guess staying busy keeps the thought of you away for a little while.

Until tomorrow my love...

~M

At The End Of Day One...

So, in your little world away we are here, just chillin' out. We ate dinner and the kids are now in Olivia's bedroom playing with the Pizza Hut, Subway and Dairy Queen plastic toys pretending they are having a pizza, sandwich, ice cream party with their animals. I made the mistake of letting the dog in their room because it looked like she was lonely, what with me on the computer and her hearing all the commotion on the other end of the door. So all I hear now besides them singing Happy Birthday to some animal named "Peter" is Anthony and Olivia yelling and telling Lulu "NO!!! Bad dog!"

I am thinking about taking them out to Baskin Robbins, I think more for me than for them. Maybe it will fill the little empty spot that I have...:( It's ok, every time I thought about you leaving before this I would get extremely upset and said to myself that I would be mad the whole time you were gone and not answer the phone for you abandoning us...but it's the other way around. Things never turn out the way I want them to! Lol...:) I wait for the phone to ring and hope the kids don't bring you up too much so they don't get overly upset either. I fight the want to call you every hour just to hear your voice. It's funny, but I didn't think I would ever miss you this much, but then when I go out of town alone for just a couple of days it's almost the same feeling...oh well what do ya do?

Well, anyways, you wanted me to tell you about my day at work and why it was so horrible...well R decided to leave me a note because I forgot to add up into the equation a tile bill for a client and so the check was short...now let's not forget that I gave him this billing to look over as well and he didn't catch it either so...well of course he told me that I never did give it to him and I was just not going to argue with him, because I would have quit right at that minute. I wrote him a note and told him that I work very hard for him and I don't appreciate the way he talks to me when he writes notes to me. I continued on to tell him that I know he doesn't have any tact when writing but for my sake he should attempt. So dispite the fact that he left me a message that I heard when I got into the office I refused to call him back and when my mom talked to him later and then handed the phone to me I just blamed being busy. So later in the day he would ask me to do things right away and I just put it to the side and when I was done doing other things I eventually got around to it. J called me later and asked me if I had e-mailed a new client the typed bid that I did and I said No...no one gave me a fax number or an e-mail address to send it to and R wanted to look it over first. After I faxed it to R I didn't touch bases again with him and just waited for him to call me and tell me what to do with it. I am so tired of chasing after these losers and making sure they do what they are supposed to. Next time I need something and call them and they don't do it right away then I am not going to chase them any more. If R get's mad about it then I will tell him the same thing. I will let him know when there is something I need to do I write a note and do it within that same day. So on my way to pick up the kids I thought that I would call J since he called about the bid and tell him that I wasn't in the office. He had the nerve to ask me if I was going to go back so that I could send it and I said no. He should think about giving me all the information that I need and then I will do it in the morning. I was just waiting for R to call me and tell me something else. I hope he does call 'cause I won't answer the phone...and the best part about that is that he knows that I'm home with the kids.

So that is how my day went, so I'm sure that you can guess how incredibly pissed off I was when I left, especially with how I've been feeling already...So it was definately a treat to hear your voice this afternoon, it made my pulse slow down considerably.

Did I happen to mention that I Cc'ed you on an e-mail that I sent Olivia's teacher? She told me during dinner that her teacher doesn't let kids go to the bathroom except for at lunch...that seems a little extreme if anyone needs to go, but I made it seem like Olivia may be mistaken about the rules of the classroom, but I still wrote her anyways.

I hope that you have a good first day at work tomorrow and I hope that your room mate doesn't come into your bed in the middle of the night for a little snuggle because he's cold.

xOXooXoXO
~M

For My Love...

So my love has gone...for a whole month, but by the time he returns I will have been gone, I won't see him for about 5 weeks. He went to "Detroit Rock City" so that he could assist in the opening of a MGM property. He has asked me to write about the goings on at home and work and with the kids, I will post as requested, but for those who could care less...I don't blame you or care, but this for him anyway, so if you choose to turn a blind eye, I don't mind...

~M

To Infinity and Beyond...

So we went to Disneyland this past week and we had so much fun! I was so excited for this trip and so was the kids. It was funny to listen to Cisco whine and complain about this trip, I think that the only reason why he even went was because of the kids. As well as me convincing him that we needed to go somewhere just the four of us...and since he has not been to Disneyland with us then this would be the perfect time for us to go. It was nice. We went for three days, but to be honest by the third day I was done. And for anyone that truly knows me knows that this is so uncommon that it's almost unnatural.As always we went to the old park first, it is now the Year of a Million Dreams, so when we got to the park at 8:30am it was still early enough to where there wasn't as many people in the park because of the hour. We went on the Pirates of the Carribean first and then when we were exiting we saw three people that worked at Disneyland and they were handing these lanyards out. I almost told them that we didn't want one, and they were saying that everyone got one so we all took one and once we were outside of the ride we looked at them better and saw that they were fast passes for the popular rides for both parks but they were only good for that day. But it was nice because if you have been to Disneyland and have used fast passes you know that when you get a fast pass you have to wait about and hour before you can use them, but with these you only have to tear it off and hand it to the attendant waiting at the head of the line.Anthy was scared of riding several things and Splash Mountain and the Hollywood Haunted Hotel was the one for both of them, but they both rode them and it was great. Olivia I think came over her fear of Haunted Mansion and the same with Anthony and Splash Mountain and it was funny because Olivia was positive that she was better with each time going on the Haunted Mansion and even was excited about opening her eyes more and more throughout the ride. Anthony was OK on the Splash Mountain as long as Cisco rode behind him so that he could be a "Real Man". I had too much fun on Saturday because we went back to the hotel and I was so sick...just too much sun, treats and rollercoasters. I guess they all don't mix at about 11pm.Anthony and Olivia were also Jr. Chefs and made chocolate chip cookies. They had fun. My mom is my usual companion with the kids to Disneyland but since she wasn't this year I didn't have to tote a whole bunch of crap around or home because Cisco and I were practical with what they bought. Olivia bought a pirate hat with an ear ring as well as a pink bandana on it and Anthony bought an Indiana Jones Hat. I am going to talk him into wearing it when the movie comes out and maybe being Indie for Halloween since every kid in the world is going to be him when the movie comes out next year.We left from Disneyland fairly early on Saturday because it was so crowded that I couldn't stand it any longer. I saw a guy wearing a shirt with "Scar" from the Lion King on it and he was saying "I'm surrounded by idiots" I so wanted to buy that shirt and wear it around. But we left and took the kids back to the hotel around 6 and they went swimming while I took a nap in the room and then we went to Newport Beach and had dinner. It was really nice, I loved the place that we went to, it was a bar and grill type place but the kind that I love and for some reason I can only find these places in California.We'll just say that the kids had loads of fun and were pooped daily and never wanted to wake up in the morning. On Sunday we checked out of the hotel and we drove over to Pasadena and went to breakfast as well as walking around in Old Town for a couple of hours. We kept on trying to leave but then we would pass by somewhere and want to go into it. We ate at this really good little Mexican restaurant, you would have never even thought about going into it because it's such a little hole in the wall and it looks all dingy and dirty on the outside, but it is truly a hidden gem. I'm sure that Cisco will post up the name of it, because I cannont think of it right now. I saw a place that I want to go back to for Halloween decorations, it looks like they have tons of them.We went to the Norton Museum while we were there and I had never been there, so it was nice to walk around there. I personally enjoy the museum that is on Wilshire. I can't think of the name of it, but the La Brea tar pits is there as well, because it is much bigger and there isn't as many people, or atleast it didn't seem like there are when we go there. This place was crowded and it looked like there were tons of students there when we went. I would have never thought that a museum would be that packed on a Sunday, but it was. There is a really nice area with gardens and scuptures, I was loving the lilly pads that I sawI think that they were just so beautiful. Overall we all had a great time, and were glad that we were able to get out of town, as usual it was hard to leave and no one wanted to go back to work but...there is always October when my mom is making me go to Disneyland again with her for her Birthday...

Friendships...

They are something that cannot be entered into lightly. You have to have the desire, will, passion and determination to make it work and not let it die. Friendships I have found, are remarkably close to a romantic relationship in that way. If you abandon it and abuse it, it falls apart like any other relationship. Only when you have been on the end doing the abusing as well as the end that is feeling abandoned can you totally relate to the whole experience.

In ones life you may experience many friendships but only a small handfull will be of true substance and worth your time and energy. It's a completely heartbreaking thing when it seems like a frienship is drifting away like the hot summer winds blowing at your back. Relationships with others evolve, kids come along and eventually the friendships die away. I have only been able to hold on to a couple of friends from before I had my son and those are the ones that I cherish the most. I can admit that I have done my fair share of being a "bad" friend, by not calling people back or breaking dates that we made to do lunch or catch a movie. But when it happens all you can think about is, "I will call back when I have a minute" or "we can always go out another time". But as soon as you remember you have to call back or make another date it's been a month and feelings are hurt. The friends that are true will be through all of that with you and will be able to put on an understanding face in the midst of it. However, they will also let you know how out of line you were with your actions at that given point in time.

It's important to remember the people that are always there for you through it all. All of the late night phone calls when their heart has just been broken (or yours) and all the hugs that make everything always seem better even if it isn't. These are the friends that will continue to be there for you.

People get married and have kids, but when friendships are forgotten about what will you do when you need a break from it all, just to see a movie or gossip about nothings to eachother? It can be harder to have those relationships back if they are forgotten or placed on the back burner.

Love may endure, but friendships do to and like a good wine get better with age.
Cherish those around you and don't forget who got you where you are today. :)

~M

An Anniversary...

So as I had mentioned before C and I came across our 7th Anniversary. I am beginning to wonder why I even call it an Anniversary as we are not married and never will be, but I guess it's because I have a lack of any other words to call it.

But, that is besides the point. The point is the gift he gave me. I enjoy when he gives me books because he knows what I like to read,or so I think and hope he does, and buys me books that I ultimately enjoy.

He bought me Steve Martin's novel "Shopgirl" for this special day. Now to me the book has a special meaning.

I had downloaded this movie onto my iPod a couple of months ago and watched it. It had moments of humor in it as well as a certain sadness that overwhelmed me at times. I think this is due to the overwhelming nature of Ray and Mirabelle's relationship. I think that it is just too familiar and I seem to be living in it to a certain extent. There are some parts of it that don't fit, but as far as I am concerned a great deal of it does.

I enjoyed the book a great deal and it was a bit different than the movie as all good and even bad books usually are, but the movie was very close to the nature of the book. It's hard to say which I enjoyed more.

To me books have always been magical in a way that is undescribeable. I was always getting into so much trouble as a little kid that I was constantly reading and part of the "Weekly Reader" club. I had all the great books like, "Freckle Juice", "Ramona Forever" and all the other classic 3rd grade readings. But whenever I would read it was like a movie already playing in my head, the characters had their look and voices and habits. I talked to some of my friends about this before and most looked at me like I was crazy, those of you who have my experiences with reading probably have had those same looks when you reveal what you see when reading. When I started reading all of the Harry Potter books a couple of years ago I was slightly dissapointed in looking at some of the actors because they were not what my "movie" had produced. I mean that means nothing now because I am such a big fan of the movies, but regardless.

I have started reading Steve Martin's other book that he has written. I have just started it so there isn't much to say about it yet. Except that the man that he is writing about is seriously having problems with OCD,obcessive compulsive disorder, it's slightly humorus the way Steve Martin is writing though.

Hopefully it will be just as enjoyable as reading "Shopgirl" it's definately been a while since I have read something that is hard for me to put down.

~M