Who Wants To Go To The Adult Superstore...

I called dibs on this little bit of amusing humor from Cisco.

Sunday's are our family days together...Cisco, Olivia, Anthony and I. Cisco and I decided to do a little window shopping and walking around this past Sunday. We went to Town Square, which I went to a couple of weeks ago with my mom, and we walked around. It's really neat, just like stepping into California. Well it was a little cold to be walking around outside, so we decided to go to the Venetian. There is a new shopping area connected to the Grand Canal Shops. While driving on the freeway to get there Cisco took the wrong exit...which led us going West on Spring Mountain instead of East, so while talking and driving and getting ready to make a U turn to get back on the right track, we hear Olivia spurt out..."Anyone want to go to the Adult Superstore?" Cisco and I looked at eachother and started laughing a bit...and looked over and saw that sure enough there is one right in front of us. While saying no and trying to change the subject without trying to laugh my ass off, I was wondering how long it would be until the question of what was in there or what that place was would take place. I mean it's Las Vegas and there is one of those places everywhere on that side of town. I guess I'm just happy that she said it with us in the car and not her Grammy.

~M

A Little Pick Me Up...

I found this very amusing, it definately brought a smile to my face...enjoy.

~M

Keep On Smilin'...

Well atleast I am trying to. I have been sick for about 1 week, it sure does just seem like a cold, but it won't go away! It's killing me that I can't do anything. I am trying to do some laundry because we have officially run out of clothes. I kinda made dinner today, I didn't go to work today, but I have to try to go tomorrow. This sucks, but when I feel better I will write some more.

~M

To The First Day...

So today was the First official day of going to The gym and it was a horrible experience, I never want to do that again...lol. It's amazing that only now I really am realizing how out of shape I am. My muscles that I worked today are in a serious amount of pain but I guess that is to be expected. Over all I think I did pretty good today and dispite all of my body and mind nitrate wanting to go back tomorrow I know that I will.
M

Time To Get Out of Denial...

Well I guess I have never really been in denial about my weight, but more like trying to be blind about it. I am the last person in the world that will tell you, "I'm not fat, I'm big boned" Well I do actually have a larger body frame, thanks to my grandma...but that doesn't excuse my weight right now. It started because of steroids that were being injected every three months, which made the ball roll down hill from there. Being in a relationship that makes me completely happy, and having a boyfriend tell me that he loves me and hugs me to prove it, probably didn't help either. So, I have decided that it is time to quit being a lazy biotch and get my ass on the move. I was watching The Biggest Loser this past fall and I'm watching it again, and I look at some of these women on there, and they are the same weight as me! I thought that was just gross. I mean I personally don't think that I look that big, but then someone takes a picture of me, or I get a sideways glance at myself in the mirror or in a window, and I just want to break down.

I just don't think mentally I can handle it any longer. I think one of my favorite places to go shopping is on Colorado Blvd. in Pasadena, but for the times that I have been going there, I have NEVER been able to shop in ANY of the clothing stores, there. Which makes me even more depressed now that I am remembering that. I have kept setting goals for myself, only to not follow through with them because of laziness (that's all I can really come up with). I mean working out at home is hard, there is no motivation, there is no kick ass equipment, huge t.v.'s or other people trying to achieve the same goals. So tomorrow after work I am going to 24 Hour Fitness and getting my membership. I am determined not to let anything stand in my way of this.

Now that my finances are being dealt with and I have finally grown up in that aspect I can afford it, along with paying the other bills at the end of the month. That is a great feeling, by the way. I don't think that my goals at this point are too extreme. I do want to stop shopping at the "fat girl" stores and start shopping at other places. I think my goal for right now is to get into a size 14, I am in a 18 right now, so there is some work to do but with some determination and some help from home I think I can do it. I also think that posting this for the world to see as well as my online buddies might keep me in check, I almost posted a picture, but didn't think that was going to help my self esteem get any higher so I decided against it. I will however take some at home and keep them there.

I am determined to make this a lifestyle change and not just a "I'm on a diet for now" change. Heart attacks run in my family as does Diabetes. I definately want to live a long time and without problems, so this is a good thing...for me and my kids.

Wish me luck...much love.

~M

Well Its A Little Update...

well hopefully this little blog will come out just fine... Cisco gave me a real cell phone for Christmas, yay no more go phone for me! Im so excited. I am sending this blog from the phone right now trying to get the hang of the keyboard, I guess the good thing about it is that it is set up just like a computer keyboard so I am flying across this thing like a champ. There wasnt too much that was different about this christmas from others...the kids got more presents than they should have and still felt the need to complain about it... which really bothers me. So I have been warming up to the idea of Ciscos to spend next christmas in Mexico. I think that it would be good to have the kids spend it somewhere where the kids dont get as much and they are genuinely thankful for what they do get. I have the thought right now that due to the spoilings of aunts, uncles and grandparents they have in the back of their head "i wish i got more" or "what else did i get?" so we will see how the fates play out for us. I hope that we are able to do it. I hope that all of you had a great holiday with your family and friends. Happy New year to you all...make it a safe one. :)
-M

Tonight Is The Night...

it's Christmas Eve and the kids are all kinds of excited. They can't help from jumping up and down in complete excitement. For me, I'm excited also, I just am a little happy that it's all over. It just gets to the point where it's a little too hectic for me. It's the jumping around and visiting everyone in the next two nights that drives me nuts, I swear we will be living in the car tonight and tomorrow, or atleast that is what it feels like. I think that I just might not come into work on Wednesday, well yeah right who am I kidding, I'm here right now. Atleast today is only a half day. But it was so hard to come into work when the house was nice and warm, the kids and Cisco were in their PJ's watching cartoons and here I am coming down the stairs going to work. That just really sucked. I'm sure I will be feeling the same way on Wednesday also. That is how it always is. No one wants to come into work on Christmas Eve as well as the day after Christmas. I think that this is a lot better though, job wise, because I remember when I worked at Mandalay how much it sucked to go to work. And at those places you don't get the holiday's off. You're actually very lucky if you do get the holiday off.

Well here is to tonight and Olivia's performance. As well as Christmas in general.

Till I see you all again...

~M

Just My Luck...

Well...no luck at all. I wasn't able to get the tickets and I am quite upset by it. I thought I had a pretty good plan going for a while, but aparently not. Nice goin'...I guess I should have camped out at MGM after all. Oh well, life will go on.

On a lighter note, it's almost Christmas and the phase of people being rude, pushing into one another and cutting eachother off on the streets is nearly over. I tend to hate people in general around this time of year. It's been all blown into something that it never should have become...all about the presents. That is a shame. I mean I buy gifts for everyone too, but I can also appreciate the time of year that it is and what it means, atleast in my heart. And presents are not at the core of it. I think this year instead of letting the kids just tear into things the minute that we get downstairs, I think that we will have a prayer and give thanks for the true meaning of the day itself, and then let the shredding begin. I was thinking about that today while driving home from work and I think that would be a beautiful start to the day.

Well, I'm sure that I won't write until after this holiday so Merry CHRISTMAS...not Happy Holiday's (screw that crap), and I hope everyone is healthy and happy.

Much Love...

~M

On The Search For...

Hannah Montana. I thought that it would be an awesome Christmas present for Olivia if I were to score some Hannah Montana concert tickets. Cisco just left to go to the Ticketmaster located in one of the local grocery stores and I am camped out on the computer. The tickets go on sale at noon, so I have about 20 or so minutes until I have to type faster than ever before. We said whoever got the tickets first would call the other, so that we don't buy two sets. I guess I could always sell them to one of Olivia's little friends for the price that we bought them for if that did happen. But, I don't want to go through the hassle of doing all that. I really hope that we get them, but if we don't the one good thing is that, 1. Olivia doesn't know she is coming to do a concert here and 2. She doesn't know that I'm trying to get the tickets.

It's funny because I thought this was a project that I was going to do on my own, since I came up with it and all. But at about 5:30 or 6:00 this morning Cisco was getting dressed. I couldn't figure out what the hell he was doing. I asked him and he said that he was going to the MGM to see if he could get the tickets. So believe me it's nice to have a partner in crime now with this stuff.

I hope we get them, but if not atleast I tried extremely hard. I even tried to join the fan club at $30 a year, just to get the presale code to get the tickets yesterday.

Well wish me luck and I'll eventually blog to say how it all went down.

~M

A Man Cold...

Oh the truth of it all...thanks Summer!



~M

It's my birthday...(part 1)

And I'll cry if I want to...well atleast I think I will if Cisco comes home tonight to tell me that he doesn't have tomorrow off. Which I would think he would since I'm pretty sure that he has known my little birthday would be on a Friday for a while. I am not officially 28 for a couple of more hours, so I have to enjoy being 27 for right now. Cause "at the stroke of 12 the spell will be broken" just as Cinderella's fairy Godmother would say.

Unfortunatly for me I have to spend my birthday trying to get the issues that I am having with my Drivers License resolved. So it's off to the Courthouse at 7:30 in the morning to see if I can work my charms. Even the lady at the DMV this evening felt bad for me. So...maybe I can make this work. Gotta go looking cute tomorrow.:)

I don't really have any plans, Olivia said that I was invited to dinner with her Grandmother and Godmother, but that all depends on if Mr. C can get the day off, if he doesn't then I will take them up on their offer. If he does then I hope that he has actually planned out the evening, I like spontinaety, but there has to be suprise on my end not on his too, he's supposed to know what we are doing. Not get in the car and then say, "So what do you wanna do?" I HATE that. I don't like that on special occasions when I'm not supposed to do the thinking and when I have told him many examples of what I would like to do for my birthday. I think that I have even given some very good examples on this blog before. Yeah, I wish I knew how to do the thing with the link so that he could click on it and see the evidence. But if you look at last November I think I did make a list.

Well when things have settled from this weekend I will write again. Saturday Cisco has the Santa Run, and I'm sure he'll post pictures for that, and I signed up to do the Walk for Autism. I think that December 1st is the day of the walks or something, because there is the Las Vegas Marathon too. But then on Sunday is Cisco's Christmas dinner for MGM Food and Beverage so it will be a busy weekend.

Adeu till then

~M

My Best Friend's Wedding...

So it's has happened...my best friend Steve "Stecktacular" got married. I just never thought that it would happen, atleast not before me. But he looks happy and that makes me happy. I thought I would post some pictures. It was really fun and maybe the next wedding I see him at will be mine...cause you'll never guess who caught the bouquet...

~M

It Took Long Enough...

Well I finally got around to downloading my pictures so a little history for some of them...Halloween Party, need I say more? It was a lot of fun, Anthony was Indiana Jones and Olivia was Hermione. I wonder if you can guess who I was...Alice In Wonderland, just in case :)I think this party went better than last year. I even put up a little Haunted House in the garage I was thinking for a little bit that none of the kids would go into it, but low and behold that is where they spent most of the day in there. This party was not as stressful as last year and I think that was because I pretty much knew what I was going to do. I'm sure that getting started a month early with the planning and shopping probably helped. I do always forget how much money it always costs and all the time it takes to make the food and set everything up, but it's all worth it because I know all the kids have fun.
I always give out the best prizes, so it's definitely worth coming to my parties...you know Halloween T-Shirts and other things that you normally don't get at parties, at least not any parties that I have been to. I swore that I wouldn't have a party next year, but that is what I said last year also. It's hard not to because it really is a good time.

So now that is over with and it's November already! Can you believe it? I know that I can't, and if you live in Las Vegas it doesn't feel like November at all. It is driving me crazy! It is a known fact that I hate the heat as it is and now that it's not getting cold is not a good thing for me. It's going to be a busy week, but it should all be fun. Tomorrow we leave for California to go to a party, I'm going to try and spell this correctly, a Quincenerra. Now if I didn't please don't hate me too badly and feel free to correct me (I know that Cisco will). Let's see what else...oh yeah, my best friend Steve is getting married on Wednesday, yeah the day before Thanksgiving and what was even better than this was that he called me yesterday and told me. There is a 50th Anniversary party to go to and last but not least my birthday. Oh, isn't that going to be exciting. Another year and yet no drama. How nice...:)

Well I think that it is time to go, but when all the festivities are over I will be sure to post, maybe I'll even get a chance in between things.

~M

Updates...

So it's been a crazy last couple of weeks, but I have finally found my way back to the computer. (In the darkness of my office when I'm not working, but atleast I'm writing) So I'm at my mom's house right now having dinner and now that it is over I would like to go home, but I am being held prisioner until dessert is served, which should be in about 15 minutes. Yuck...I don't even feel like having any right now, I just want to go home, but oh well, just 15 minutes more to go then I shall be released.

So the Halloween party is over and November is in full swing and with it, work, a couple of birthday's to celebrate as well as my own and the holiday shopping season. I think that things are going to be pretty dry this year. I just don't have the funds to do much. I either pay bills or buy presents, let me think...uh, I guess I pick electricity and water. Silly me! It's ok though the only thing that I know Cisco and I really do want to get the kids is a Wii, but if I can't find one I'm not going to stress out and kill myself over one. I will cut one out of a magazine, put it in a box, wrap it up and then when Christmas is over the kids can come with us to pick one up. I think that would be ok also. Everything always works out, even if it's not how you planned it.

Well whenever I get around to plugging in my camera at home I will and post some pictures from the Halloween party and also talk about it a little bit.

Until we meet again...

~M

My Mommy's Birthday...

Well there isn't much to tell except that it was my mommy's birthday and we went to Disneyland so here are some pictures of the trip! Enjoy.

~M

He's Home...

Yay! My hunny is home. He's actually sleeping right now, and I should too since my mom is going to call me at 5am to wake me up so that she can pick us up to go to Disneyland in the morning. I swear sometimes I think she has hit the crack pipe...but I love her. It's her birthday on Saturday so it should be fun for her to spend it at Disneyland. I am going to miss my hunny since he just got back home today and now I'm leaving for 4 1/2 days. That sucks...oh well atleast I'm not flying 4 hours away! Well I will post again when I return with pictures!

~M

A Little Porn Anyone...

Food Porn that is...I thought I would post the picture of the Black Forest Cake that I made for our neighbor tonight. On an even more positive note...MY HUNNY COMES HOME IN THE MORNING! Yay! I'm so excited. I'm in trouble though...I don't think I will be able to sleep tonight. I pretended to sleep when I was playing with Anthony and then actually fell asleep. Being really tired when I came home from work was the one thing that I had going for me. I mean I hope I do get to sleep. I need to look my best for him in the morning...:)

~M

So I Thought That It Was Over...Guess I Was Wrong...

So I have gotten over my rage from the other day...the moment has passed and after confronting R on his lack of billing skills the issues were resolved and now I am experiencing a very relaxing not busy at all kind of day...yay.

My mother decided to leak that bonuses are coming up and from the sounds of it all of the hard work and extreme irritation will be well worth it. I certainly hope that she is right and didn't quote the opposite amount of what will actually be given. The number that she gave sounds like it would be right consitering all the hard work we have all been doing. But we will see. I almost wish I didn't drag the number out of her, just in case.

Well on the fronts of my hunny in Detroit, he has opened the new place and I only have to wait 6 more days until he returns. I think that this week is going by so slow, and I know it is because I am just awaiting his return. But soon enough I will have him in my little arms.

~M

It's Just About O~V~E~R...

I have just so had my fill of Bull S@*# for today! I am so sick and tired of this stupid ass job that I have, and what is worse I am so sick and tired of R thinking that I am a complete idiot. He feels the need to talk down to me all of the time and make me feel like I am the idiot! Well guess, what! He's the moron. Good luck telling him he's wrong with something or that he has done something wrong. He turns it around and makes it someone else's fault. I think I'm about done, so if anyone is looking to hire a smart and intelligent person, please do contact me.

~M

Another Morning...Another Day...

Oh bother...another morning waking up alone in a cold room. No one to keep my little feet warm, or cover me with the blankets because I have kicked them all off once again. So since there is no one to do that I wake up every few hours because I'm cold and have to fight with the dog to get off the blankets that I'm trying to pull up to my chinny chin chin to stay warm.

Feeling that I have abandoned some of my very good friends on My Space I've written a couple of them, it's just hard to try and write and say hi to everyone...maybe I'll just post a bulletin and that will take care of it, then people can read it as they wish.

Let's see what do I have to do today...um, go to JoAnne's and return some stuff. Go to Target and do the same thing. Rick is going to come over and bring the kids bikes home, so that is a good thing, they have been asking me for their bikes, but there is no way in hell I am able to bring them home in my car. He is also going to be picking up the tile cutter and I have some stuff in the car from the garage that I am taking to Goodwill because I am tired of looking at it, however, I am not telling you what it is, because I know you will tell me not to do it and that you will take care of it...and after a year and a half of hearing that about this stuff...I know it's not going to happen any time soon. I have figured out a way to place the bins in the garage so that everything is nice and happy...yay. I have to remember to keep the garage closed though so that scary guy doesn't come over and think that we're the best of friends. Maybe when I am at JoAnne's I will go and eat at Sweet Tomatoes. Dad is coming over and he's going to help me do the lawn, so I have a busy day ahead of me I guess. Time to get started...

So the house is all dressed up. I have to take some pictures and then I will post them later.

~M