Who??? Cisco??? Where...

Yes, I'm wondering where my beau is...if anyone finds him please send him back care of Melissa....Thank you.

He has been working so much he comes home when I am asleep and leaves when I am asleep. Good thing that we have a stable relationship or it would be thought that he was up to no good.

I know that this job is "for the better" but I certainly hope that "we" see rewards soon...If I wanted to be a single mother with two kids I would have signed up for it on my own. I don't like eating dinner at the table alone ( without stimulating adult conversation so that I don't have to hear about who farted in class that day constantly ). Sure it's nice having alone time with the kids but it's hard to enjoy that time when I am needing to deligate tasks that need to get done....Storytime before bed, good luck! That turns into an argument because there is always the other one that wants to have their story read to them instead. It's tough I'll give it that much...I try to stay up and wait for him to come home from work, but it's nearly impossible since I am so exhausted after doing the mom thing all afternoon and night. It's not easy being a cook, personal driver to events, nanny, dishwasher, laundry maid and housekeeper all in one day...nearly everyday. I think that after all of this "training" that he is going through it should settle down a little bit...I hope. Well that's enough whining for now...I know that I will grow used to it, but for right now I'm not...I know when I am though it will seem like things had always been this way :)

He should have normal days off and then that will help a lot. So here is to looking toward the future...and still if you see my precious send him home...IMMEDIATELY!!!

Lonely...

I am feeling lonesome about 95% of the time now...sure I have the kids and things to do around the house. It just isn't the same though when he's at work and we are able to steal small moments when he isn't busy at work. I know that it is something that I will grow used to and adapt to, but I don't want to get used to that...it scares me. I enjoy the sound of all of us in the house. Talking about nothing too special, but just the fact that we are in the house together. I look forward to this Sunday because he will be home with all of us, eventhough I'm sure we will be going to church alone while he sleeps for a better part of the morning or afternoon. I can't stand this new schedule that he is on, but I must be thankful that we both have jobs and eachother. Also, I'm sure he doesn't like the schedule much either.

~M

The Return from a Slight Paradise...

So Anthony, Olivia, my mom, Step-dad and myself took off to California last weekend. It was nice to get out of this desert for the weekend...I was wishing that I had taken my own car by the time we were half way there but it was still nice.

There is a client that we are building a home for that has a townhome in Marina Del Rey that is a stone throw away from the water. This home is just absolutely beautiful. I didn't know what to do with myself when I got there, well I did because it was about 11:00pm, so after taking a short tour of the four story home I was ready to find my bedroom and call it a night.



We went to Santa Monica on one of the days that we were there, for the most part the sun never came out to visit, so it was a hard decision to not go to the beach the whole time that we were there. It was too bad though because we took bathing suits and sand toys for the kids to play with. Anthony and Olivia went with my step-dad to the beach when my mom and I decided to go shopping so atleast they got to go for a little while. Quite honestly the trip was a total bore up until about Saturday only because my parents took us to California with only one plan...SeaWorld on Sunday. Other than that it was driving around with nowhere in particular in mind.

We did go to dinner at a very nice place on Friday night...that turned out to be a fun night. We took turns being very silly for most of the night after that...
my mom thought that there was something wrong with us but I think that the Champagne kicked in for me and the sugar rush from the sodas worked their magic on the kids...


We went for a late night stroll on the beach and Anthony and I decided to get wet...really wet Anthony had to remove his clothes before we went walking back to the house because he was so wet, that water wasn't very warm either. I was wishing I had another change of clothes when I was done because of how wet I was. I was a little scared that there was going to be something wrapping around my foot or ankle since I was waist deep in the ocean water. It was so beautiful that night though...there was no wind and you could see straight down the beach and even see the lights of the ferris wheel on the Santa Monica Pier. I loved it and was wishing that we were spending another night there because I would have loved to go to the ocean again at 9:00 in the evening. We took turns riding up and down in the elevator that is in the home that we stayed in and ate our desserts that we got from the Farmers Market near the La Brea Tar Pits.
We went to the Rose Gardens near USC and to the Natural History Museum also...

that was the neatest museum that I had been to, atleast the neatest kid friendly one!We left early in the morning to go to SeaWorld and that was a miserable day only because of the weather...cold and slightly rainy. It was ok later in the day because the sun would play peek a boo every once and a while, but we rode the two water rides that they have and then after that we had to buy whole new outfits because we were just soaked. The kids had to buy sandals because their shoes were just filled to the brim with water. SeaWorld was nice to go to, I wish I would have been able to see everything because I hadn't been there since I was five. We stayed the night in San Diego and then the next morning after breakfast it was back home we went. Just something to remind those with kids...don't leave them unsupervised with a camera in the back seat of the car...this is what happens...46 pictures of this!

When I get around to posting these to flicker I will share all of them with you...my friends...till then...
~M

Clue #4

This city is the capital of a great empire...

~M

A Moment of Solitude...

Even in this busy day that I have going on...

All I can think of is the moment of solitude that I will have when I am walking along the beach in California this weekend...

Without kids by my side...

Without my love by my side but in my heart...

Wishing all the while that he was with me in that moment...

To watch the sunrise...

To watch the sunset...

Together in that beautiful moment...

I will be thinking of him...

And wishing he was with me...

~M