Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Thanksgiving in San Francisco...

Day One ~ Wednesday, November 22

It was a great day for a drive. I decided that Anthony should just stay out of school and he could help Cisco clean up the house and get his little bag packed for the trip that we were about to embarq on. I went to work for a couple of hours and went to go get some lunch for us before we left. We packed up the car, played musical vehicles and then finally started driving around 1:30pm. The original plan was to leave around 11:30am, I knew that wasn't going to happen though. My secret thought was that Anthony and Cisco were playing XBox for a better part of the morning instead of getting ready like I told them to. It's ok though, because we atleast got out of the house before the sun started going down. We drove into a little town named Hanford, CA. We found the hotel, got into jammies and Anthony and Cisco decided to mess up one of the beds by playing in it for most of the evening. It was fun though. We watched the end of Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire and watched some of the Garfield movie. I think I turned off the T.V. around 12:30am and Anthony was still up watching T.V. 2:30am brought on the wakeup call of the century. The hotel is located within a mile of a railroad track and this train had it's horns blowing. My eyes opened rather wide and I was AWAKE at the sound of this stuff. It was a true, My Cousin Vinny moment. There were several thoughts that went through my mind that night. I think the train blairing it's horn went on until about 5:30am, that was the last I remember hearing of it. I was more that a little bit tired the next day.

Day Two ~ Thursday, November 23 ~ Thanksgiving Day

It was really nice on this day. I thought that it would be really cold but it wasn't. We started driving toward San Francisco around 9:30am and got there at about 12:30pm. It was a nice drive. There was a lot of traffic, I had never been somewhere else for Thanksgiving or atleast never had to drive somewhere for Thanksgiving before so it was a totally new experience. It was nice when we got to our destination. It wasn't as cold as I thought it would be up there. I was so ready for a nap when we got to Olivia's aunt's house. But then it was time to visit and help out with whatever I was asked to help with, which wasn't much. Things were pretty much done. It was time to get ready for dinner not too long after we arrived. Got the clothes ironed, the kids ready and myself and Cisco as well. There were a lot of people that came to dinner. Things were so nicely decorated. The tables had name places at the seats, glasses, flowers, everything. It was a nice spread. There was the traditional things served as well as pomagranate cosmos, yummy. We ate, visited, ate dessert, and then played some cards. I was toast by the time we went to sleep.

Day Three ~ Friday, November 24

A day in the city. Cisco wanted to go and visit the 'witchcraft in San Francisco so we drove out there in the morning. I have never seen such a complicated parking lot to get into than the one that is located across the street from the Westfair Mall. You have to get in line with your car on the other side of the block and then wrap around to get into it. That was about a process of around 1/2 an hour. Once we finally got into the parking lot it was smooth sailing. We had lunch at the 'witchcraft and then went into the mall. This thing was huge. It was atleast 7 stories. It wasn't a long building though, just high. There were a lot of stores, but I hate going to a mall that I'm not familiar with because I don't know where my favorite stores are located and I always feel awkward going to a mall with Cisco, because I am in the mood to look and window shop but I always feel like he is just tapping his foot. He doesn't say anything, that's just me. We took Anthony to see Santa while we were there and then went out to the street and started walking looking for more stores to go to and look around. Let's keep in mind that this was on Black Friday, so it was some sort of a nightmare. We walked up to the Disney Store and Anthony got himself a little toy, since he was so cold I had to buy him a hat there too. Cisco wanted to look in Williams Sonoma for some stuff for work and right next door was Tiffany's so I went there. I bought myself a sterling silver bracelet for my Birthday, it's so pretty. We walked over to the Westin, I don't remember the name of it, but it's really old. We went in and grabbed something to eat and drink and then headed back to the car because we were going to see a movie with the whole gang. The city was definatly busy and part of the problem that I found was there there was a couple of demostrations going on and picketors in front of Macy's. Other than that I had so much fun walking around. I think it would have been easier without Anthony, but it was still fun. We went and saw Happy Feet, which I didn't wanna see anyways, but when we walked out of there I knew why. Now how is it that the creators of this movie think that there are going to be Mexican Pengins? We went back to the house and had Thanksgiving leftovers and watched Over the Hedge. Now that movie is funny.

Day Four ~ Saturday, November 25

Oh crap, I don't have a phone to call Jackie on her birthday and I can't find a stamp to mail her card out. This is also the day that we start to head back home. We drove out to Yosemite. I have never been there before and let me just say the road to get there sucks. Anthony and I felt car sick the whole way up the mountain because it was so curvy. I don't do curvy. It is really pretty up there though. Let me also say that I wish I would have known that it was going to be as cold as it was. WE WERE FREEZING!!!! I think that was all that Anthony did up there was complain about how cold it was. We found somewhere to stay up there that night and then went and had dinner at a restaurant up there. It was nice. We went back to the hotel and took a shower. Hello!!!! The shower would go to perfect warm water to scalding hot water. Cisco and I were stuck in the shower screaming for help from Anthony to turn it colder! That's pretty bad. I felt like I had second degree burns on my legs from that water. That was horrible. I was so scared of the shower I skipped it all together the next morning. We saw some bears, and deer ran past our room the next morning.

Day Five ~ Sunday, November 26

It was Cold, Cold, Cold that morning. We went and had the worst breakfast of our lives and then drove out of the park. We took lots of pictures, which we had to talk Anthony into. We drove up to about 9 thousand feet on this mountain. There was snow up there and all of the rivers were frozen over with ice. It was really neat. Cisco and I kept on running out of the car to take pictures while Anthony stayed snuggly warm in the back seat. We took some really neat pictures up there. It was so beautiful. Cisco says that was my birthday hotel room and that is good for me. I had a lot of fun. I'm glad that we went up there. We drove back down and headed towards Death Valley. We ventured down the wrong road because this paved road that we were on turned into a dirt road and there were only three cars that ended up passing us on this road. I swear I didn't think that the car was going to make it. Cisco and I started talking to pass the time. He had asked me what the worst thing that I could think of happening to us. I told him, " Not being able to find the main road. Having to spend the night here in the car and someone coming along and murdering us in the middle of the desert." He said, "Where would someone come from?" Because there was nothing and no one out there. I told him, "You know in those movies people just come out of nowhere." Right when I said that we went over a little hill and there was this lady jogging in the middle of the desert on the same road that we were on. Cisco was officially freaked out. We hadn't seen anyone or anything for the longest time and then out of nowhere there is lady jogging. We finally found the road and headed home. We took a two hour detur on accident. But it was certainly interesting. I was just happy that we weren't driving at night in that patch of desert that we were in. I would not have been a happy camper. We headed home and drove to my mom's house for dinner.

It was a nice trip. I consitered that my Birthday trip. I did so much while we were gone. I may have froze for some of it but it was totally worth it to do it all. I wouldn't trade that in for the world.

Thanks hunny for the idea of going up there for Thanksgiving. I love you...

~M

Saturday, November 18, 2006

I Couldn't Have Said It Better Myself...

Is It A Series Of Unfortunate Events...

I'm bored...

I'm bored...

I'm BORED...

Not with my life in general but with my realationship in general. It seems to be the same all the time, the conversation has become repetition and contains the same information all of the time. How is it that I should be able to change that up?

The same thing occuring in the relationship everyday is a good thing, I'm all for stability, but changing things up every once and a while isn't bad either.

Going to bed with naked used to bring feelings of desire and want. It was guaranteed to bring warm cuddling, kissing and a very strong prospect to Nookie...not now, sometimes but more times than not, it doesn't happen.

I used to be excited when the kids went to spend the night at grandma's house. It was always guaranteed that there would be an adventure that night, now it is spent trying to figure out what to do and usually always entails a male falling asleep on the couch at about 9:30.

As Tom Cruise would put it, "He's lost that loving feeling". There is no romance, there is no surprise. Now, it's not something that I am hoping for everyday, but it's been made so clear that these are things that I need in my life to be able to sustain. However, the desire from him to do things that would bring spark and romance is not anywhere to be found.

There used to be mornings of cuddling and if that wasn't there atleast when he woke up at the crack of dawn he would stay in bed with me, turn on the T.V. and when I woke up I could roll over and hold him. Now he goes into the study area turns on the T.V. and what wakes me up everymorning is the rapid typing on the keyboard. He says that he doesn't want to wake me up, but I see it another way. Atleast when he would stay in bed there was always playing that would sometimes lead to a nookie factor or atleast a playful smile would emerge.

Who knows, I don't. I'm glad that I am in a stable relationship, but this relationship doesn't warrent being like an old married couple. Especially since he refuses to marry me. I know that we all have our schedules and everything going on but it's getting boring seeing him fall asleep right after he get's home from work. There used to be so much talking and interesting conversation going on. It seems as though his thought and brainwaves have gone out the window sometimes. I know that I may be to blame for some of this. I could help, but I feel that I bring most of it around this relationship. Maybe that is what needs to happen if I desire for things to be different, but it's hard to be the only one doing things.

I found out that there have been other men that do things every once and a while, mark a spot on the calendar and when that date comes up do something or bring something home that is romantic.

It's sad when I wake up at 6:30 in the morning with nothing but thoughts of how to title this blog. But such is life.

~M

Friday, November 17, 2006

Almost There...

Well Fall semester is coming to an end. It was pretty rough going for a while. I dropped two classes because they were more intensive than I thought that they would be. It's alright though. I still have four that I am taking.

I received my grade for Astronomy and it was an A+, one down three more to go. My last class date is on December 12 and I have one research paper to do on Hedda Gabler and a paper to do on relationships from Communications. Other than that Math is just the testing. Since I have an A+ in my Astronomy class I was given the option to not go back to that class, which I am taking. Why go if I don't need to, I'm happy with a 98% in the class, that may have gone up since the test lastnight, which was 100%.

I feel good about how I am doing in school right now. I have been working hard and reading a lot. I am half way done with getting my AB and it will be good to graduate from CCSN and then transfer to UNLV.

I am in the process of deciding if I want to go with a Double Major. I don't know. I do know that it will be a lot of work, but I can do it. Especially if I put my mind to it.

~M

Saturday, November 11, 2006

A Load Of Ideas...

So since my Birthday is just around the corner I have been asked by several people how I would like to spend it. I have thought very deeply and hard about this and I am ready to put down various examples. I have told the Cisco that I shouldn't have to tell him what to do for my birthday. I would think that by now he would know that I am an extremely romantic person and he would know what I would want to do. But it should be interesting to see. I will give a scenario and then proceed with my list.

Wake up in the morning, smack one of the kids on the head to wake up for school. :) Find post it notes around the house telling me Happy Birthday and how much I am loved. Smile and smack someone else on the head out of sheer happiness. Drink my special. Grande Decaf Vanilla Latte that was brought from Starbucks just for me. Drive myself and the Kidlets to my job. Work begrudgingly on my birthday. Make sure that I tell everyone at work and at the job site that it is my birthday by wearing my little princess crown that I bought at Disneyland. Go to lunch with the kidlets. Sometime in the afternoon be so surprised that I almost cry when I receive a dozen roses (11 red and 1 white in the middle, or fire and ice) delivered to me at work, with a beautiful card to go with it. Smack one of the kids again out of sheer happiness :P Work until ummmm...about 4:30pm. Go home make me and the kiddies dinner or if I get really lucky the Cisco will not be busy that day and he will take us out to dinner, while I will still be wearing my crown mind you. Go home tuck the kiddies in bed and then drink Port until I can't see straight!

I think that would be a good birthday. Now, let's keep in mind that there has to be a celebration happening during the weekend! Here is a list of ideas that I have in mind for that weekend!

Restaurants

Coco's
Rosemarys
Alize
McDonalds
Andres
Craft Steak

Things I would like to do afterwards

See a show, such as...

O
Barry Mannalo
Mystere (again)
Love
Penn and Teller
Chippendales

And then after that enjoy a drink somewhere.

Such as...

The Mix
Roadrunner
VooDoo Lounge
PT's Pub
Ghost Bar
Onyx Lounge

Now, if the Cisco isn't able to come up with his own ideas for this birthday thing and he decides to use my list as a reference I certainly hope that he is going to use his Left side of the brain to pick appropriate choices. I have already went over this with him once, so it will be interesting to find out if he is able to pick the right things. I wouldn't think that it would be hard. It would be nice to stay somewhere other than home with something waiting in the room upon our arrival. But who knows...

A question of presents has also been brought up and with the Cisco I have solved this dilemma by helping him out. He can either get me nothing or an Engagement ring. I am no longer shy about asking about this. He knows what I want and if he chooses not to get me that then I want nothing for Birthday's, Christmas', Valentines', anniversary's. He says, "that's not fair", I beg to differ. I can think of something else that isn't fair...Don't make me go there. But I think that if he doesn't want to marry me then shopping for me for the holiday's is going to be extremely easy, one less thing to buy.

From my parents I know I'm gonna get money, and that is good, I need a new outfit and to pay for the $700 diamond bracelet that I bought for myself, for my birthday of course! I never bought real jewelry before and it was fun. It's a simple bracelet with little diamonds in it, I like it. She gave me a huge discount because I said it was my birthday present to myself. I can't wait to get it!

Well here is to a Happy Birthday to myself in a couple of weeks.

~M

Monday, November 06, 2006

And So The Countdown Begins...

My birthday is this month. I guess it is something to be excited about. I have noticed, however, that during the past couple of years having a birthday isn't as exciting as it was in years past. I think growing up has a lot to do with it. I am begining to look at it as just another day on the calendar. It's ok, I guess. I think that I am a little disapointed. I thought that I would be doing so many other things and having so much more when I turned 25, 26 and now 27. I am beginning to accept it, or forcing myself to accept it. It's ok, it's just another day.

~M