My Ramblings

I thought that I was smart. Atleast a little bit, with computers.

That is until a friend of mine introduced me to MySpace.

I cannot figure out for the life of me how to design the damn thing. I have asked for help but everyone keeps pushing me to other web sites and other people. If they were able to design their own then why can't they just say how to do it? This has caused a great many hours of frustration on my part.

I didn't think that I would be into it the way that I am right now. I am always trying to fix something on it or add some new pictures.

I have already scolded my friend for even introducing me to the stupid thing.

I have seen some of my friends on this thing and they have like 217 friends or atleast close to that. They are always these beautiful people also. They don't look like regular people. I guess it is true that you won't get many friends unless you dress like a whore or show yourself half naked.

I don't understand that part of it. Do these people even talk to these so called "friends"?

I hope so because then that would justify the whole thing a little more.

I hope that I get over my MySpace addiction pretty soon. If anyone knows any cures please let me know.

M

Snow? In March? In Vegas???

Yes, you read correctly and for anyone who lives in Las Vegas can tell you this doesn't happen very often but lately more and more.

Yesterday it snowed but it didn't stick. News reporters around here are now giving false hope to the fact that they THINK it might snow again today... so far no luck. I bet I am not the only one standing at the window waiting for something to happen. Going to the window is the closest I will come to going outside today. It's 35 - 40 degrees outside.

I'm just happy that for a day like this I don't have to work. I can sit at home have some tea, watch T.V. and enjoy the day. I don't think I will participate in it unless it does snow then I will have to get my son outside to play in it.

The last time it snowed really good was 2 years ago. Anyone remember that?

I do I had to drive to work at 5 am in it. That was horrible. My boyfriend and kids got to go home and play in it. It was about 1 or 2 ft. deep up in the Summerlin area. Everyone went to the park. It is the kid of park with steep hills, it's a resevoir when it rains, so everyone was sliding down the hills and playing. Making snow men and such. By the time I got home there was still snow on the ground but not that much. More brown snow than anything.

Well if it does happen to snow today I hope everyone will be able to enjoy it.

M

It's Official...I'm Loosing My Mind

School, work, kids, house chores, boyfriend = little help.

This is how I have been feeling for the last couple of weeks. I just got finished taking a bath for about 1 1/2 hours, atleast that is what it felt like. I need some much needed alone time. I love my kids and I love my boyfriend but I have just felt so overwhelmed these past weeks. I don't know why. Nothing big has changed, it just seems like it.

I have been taking the kids to school more and more and between me getting ready and trying to get them ready without them fighting I feel like I am going to loose my mind sometimes.
I usually listen to the radio loud on the way to work but lately I have been having it off. I think because this is the only time that I have for it to be completely quiet.

I get to work and I am alone all day long but then I have to deal with me talking to me! The phone and the fax don't help either. Halfway through my day with work I have to go and pick up the kids from school, bring them back to work with me and try and finish what I have going on there and help with homework. I swear I should be in a circus with the way that I am able to juggle. Then when the grandparents come home I get to go to school. If I'm lucky it is sometimes a 1 hour class and not one of my 3 hour classes.

When I'm done with that, depending on what day it is, I get to go pick up the kids, feed them, finish homework with them, get them in the shower, put them to bed, then go downstairs and do my homework. Let's not forget cleaning up the house and doing the laundry in between.

I swear I feel like these kids don't even like me anymore! I am the one that has to give out the punishments and tell them what to do so when my boyfriend gets home from work that night, in my opinion, he gets the easy part of it. Everyone is happy to see him and want to hang out with him and look at me like my head has spun around 360 degrees. He gets to help put them to bed and then chill out downstairs and have a beer, if there are any around. I'm not saying that he is lazy, he just has a convenient work schedule.

It drives me nuts when he has the kids for one day on his day off and looks at me all pissed off and complains about them fighting. Or how one of them won't do this or did do that. I don't think he completely realizes what I have to do 6 days a week.

I hope that some alone time in California will help ease the tension that I have been having and bring me back to my old self. I hate feeling this way.... M